A boy washed up somewhere else...

A boy and a girl....

August 13, 2004 ..Friday…

Wish I could erase that night..

Thinking well, no im not wish erase the day

U say…. Hi how are you my name is …. / ….

U came from nowhere saying my …. was beautiful

Yeah my ….drive , yeah u could see my thoughts

One week after the first hi

The only thing that I could think was

I wanna come home erly..

Yeah that washed boy , found a cute little innocent star

And that time I used to shine

Oh how much of my shine I borrow to you by two years

We used to understand each other to inspire each other

But suddenly u catch all my shine

And we drag ours “hi” by more 3 years

Yeah 5 years ..long …five years

Till I realize now u can shine by yourself

Now im just a opaque star

But there’s one thing u need to know

When I allowed myself to see

You re not exactly like I thought u were

Im free..im free to think

To act , to see u never really care

I thought I can have you for ever like

U used to say…

I realized I have you by “tonight”

And nothing beyond that…

All that “euphoria”

Was just inside my head , inside your hair

Was just some kind of sad joke I guess..

but the only thing I really know is …

U didn’t know exactly

What u wanted that time

Even now I guess u don’t know yet..

Maybe u deny to yourself your real desires

Maybe u know what u want, what u like and don’t have guts to admit to yourself ..look inside your soul and stop lying to

Yourself… Stop pretending …find guts, be a man at least one time in your life…

Try really hard understand your soul and try be happy

Stop pretending cause I know ..u know u’re miserable.

U know u can reach all that things u secretly wish

But u know these things are not enough…

Cause u give up of yourself

U give up of love

Of happiness…stop deny what u feel.

Do a favor to yourself and for all that ppl around you…

Try to be happy …really happy

And stop pretending, cause when u do this ppl get hurt

And I honestly hope there’s no others beside me.

I know that I said that time , hey was the last time u will listen a word for me… anyway I doubt that u will read that

U re too busy for me now, anyway im saying… after fiver years talking to u I guess I have this right…right????

Anyway doesn’t matter what I think? Or it matters DEAR BELOVED FRIEND????

Hahahahaha no..doesn’t matter..

If matters u’d probably show some respect

But im not seeing this in the last..hum let me think…

Two years…

Now this little opaque star ..blows away..died

And a new fucking big bright star born…

And yeah when a star born she lost her past memories…

What means…we are done..

Well I even dunno if one day we were here for each other..

For sure I was but u don’t..

Anyway..now im not hurt anymore..

Yeah my hearth its healed now..

Please try to be happy ok???

Do what u need to do..

Stop pretend to yourself

It’s the worse lye in the world…

And my wish for you . . . . /. . . . is:

ALL THE LOVE FOR YOU ..ALL THE BEST ;)

And to celebrate the end of this blindness

i 'll put here the song i sang for you, cause now i can listen this song without hurt my soul...